Love Diary: Sick of Love?

Jealousy consumes me when I see couples. My feelings are double jointed because I feel conflicted, guilty, confused, disjointed with these thoughts, emotions, feelings. I feel like I am wrong. How should I feel? What should I do? When I see men with women, I start feeling so disgusted. I feel unlucky. This is like a love journal entry post here. I have had love journals before. I feel very strange right now. I do not exactly know why. I am watching the 2009 cartoon film Turtles Forever & it is interesting and brilliant, while love isn't so much.